Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Motherhood
I am finally sitting down to blog for the first time... I remember promising Kevin when he first set up Aubrey's site that I would blog at least every other day. And now our precious daughter is almost 2 1/2 weeks old and I have yet to sit down at the computer. The past two weeks have been such an emotional roller coaster that I am having trouble finding words to adequately express how I feel.Anyone who knows me would say that I am a bit of a... well, I guess you could say planner, neat freak, slave to the clock, all with a touch of OCD. And I have to say I am ok with that. It meant that my house was clean, I was on time to appointments and generally had a feeling of organization to my life. Then along came Aubrey! Over the past two weeks, I have asked myself repeatedly, "How can such a sweet thing weighing all of 7 lbs create such chaos?" I have had piles of dirt sitting on the kitchen floor waiting to be vacuumed for four days, I have had to rewash the same load of laundry three times because I keep forgetting about it, and Kevin and I have to reposition ourselves on the bed nightly to avoid the patches of spit-up left by our beloved daughter. I never thought I would need much help once Aubrey arrived... I just wanted my mom here for company and to enjoy her first grandchild. Well, I feel confident in saying that I wouldn't have eaten, worn clean clothes, or remembered to brush my teeth if she didn't come.
Yes, motherhood is already changing me. I am (slowly) learning that a clean hose doesn't always matter, and eating take-out for a week straight won't cause the world to stop turning. What does matter is the precious gift you see in the picture above. I have only been with Aubrey face-to-face for 18 days and already there isn't anything I wouldn't give for her to feel loved and secure. What a blessing God has given us... it is my constant prayer that as parents we show Aubrey God's love and compassion in all that we do.
5 Comments:
said...
Kevin, that's so sweet. I almost teared up....
Ok, seriously - you guys don't have to make any decisions right away, but I think a Aubrey/Ben matchup could work in the long run. We can discuss dowries down the road, and I certainly don't want to push them. But if we want these kids to turn out right, we need to start running their lives earlier rather than later.
We miss you guys like crazy....
-Chris and Amber (and Ben too - but he can't type yet)
Kevin said...
Dowry? Are you on crack? Once Keena and I decide on a suitable bride price, an RFP will be sent out.
Kellie said...
You guys are so awesome. I love hearing your thoughts on early parenthood. The best part of it all and something that I have been praying for you guys is that this would only bring you'll closer together in your marriage. I saw that in Kevin's post to your blog Keena. It made me want to cry. You'll have such a strong and beautiful love and marriage and that is such a key to being great parents. Your children will feel more secure if they know you are secure in your love for each other. I praise God for his amazing work He is doing in your family. You'll are doing such a great job. It is overwhelming at first- but you will get in your ruitine and it won't always be so crazy. I miss you guys- and can't wait to meet your beautiful baby girl.
said...
Kevin, we typically don't respond to RFP's.
- Chris
Great post Keen. There is no doubt in my mind that she already feels loved and secure. You are the best! Love You